my life, my choice

Conflicted

Even though I am happy pursuing a career I like, I’m putting aside dating someone that makes me incredibly happy.

In the long run I know it’s so if I date them I can give them a better life, but at the same time watching them move on and try and find their way is heartbreaking. Like I wanna be happy because like yes do you grow and be successful be happy. But also like why you gotta be out there making moves maybe dating etc.

Idk. Life sucks sometimes

Well hi

Haven’t been on here in a while.

Things I’ve come to realize I’m scared of success

I excel at things quickly, then lose interest, and never perfect them.

I have to many interest that I don’t how to pursue all of them.

I get bored of people quickly. Or I’m just too afraid to get attached to them so I leave first

That’s me.

Still alive surprisingly

I am overly complacent.
I have so many ambitions that I overwhelm myself.
I end up just not doing nothing.
I also realize I’m the one causing the problem and I need to fix it.
I have single handedly killed my creative ambitions over fear of what others think and approval. I fucking hate myself.